My mum, Poly Styrene: Celeste Bell on her mother’s outstanding legacy


n September 2008, a packed-out group at the Roundhouse witnessed the return of groundbreaking punk band X-Ray Spex, joined by their founder and inimitable drive of a frontwoman, Poly Styrene, to engage in via their just one and only album, 1978’s Germfree Adolescents.

Celeste Bell, Poly’s daughter, was the guidance act that night time with her band Debutant Disco. “That was fundamentally my 1st at any time gig,” Bell remembers now, “and it was in front of, like, 3,000 people, so that was really mind-boggling and enjoyable.”

But that wasn’t the only motive Bell was nervous on the evening. She experienced viewed how anxious her mother was in the lead-up to the present and how, seriously medicated to maintain her bipolar condition in verify, Poly was nervous “she would f*** it all up due to the fact she wouldn’t be able to cope with it,” Bell claims. “And so the reality that she managed to get through it, and it was a roaring results — that was just wonderful to see, and be like, ‘Oh, it was all well worth it’.”

Aspect of the fervour that engulfed the north London location that night was definitely down to the improbability of this kind of a thing ever going on. When the 21-12 months-outdated Poly Styrene — genuine title Marianne Elliott — still left X-Ray Spex following three quick but seismic yrs in 1979, it was amid a swirl of significant praise, but also general public scrutiny, sector force and unspooling psychological ailment.

As Bell says in a new, incredible documentary about her mother’s daily life and perform, “it took an outstanding amount of money of toughness for my mum to walk away from X-Ray Spex,” a band at “the peak of their success”. But as Bell adds: “Poly Styrene had to die so that Marianne Elliott could survive.”

How she received to that stage, and the various rebirths that followed, is all unpacked in the film, narrated by Bell, who co-directed it alongside Paul Sng. The task started in earnest for Bell in 2016 — 5 several years soon after her mother’s demise from cancer at the age of 53 — when she began to delve as a result of the comprehensive archives that were being still left at the rear of, unearthing all the things from Poly’s handwritten lyrics, to all her several artworks and graphic patterns.

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The movie rightly holds Poly up as an icon — an Anglo-Somali, working-course individualist from Brixton who was intent on blazing her have trail — but never shies absent from the darkness in her everyday living, whether that was the misogyny and racism she on a regular basis confronted, or the up-and-down romance she had with her daughter, which veered from strong maternal adore to neglect and anger.

“I was always identified to be definitely open up, warts and all,” Bell says. “But at the identical time, what is actually vital for me, much more than nearly anything else, is providing my mom the regard she warrants, and making a movie she would be delighted with.”

For Bell, that means discovering the X-Ray Spex period in all its explosive influence, but also generating absolutely sure viewers realise these number of yrs ended up just just one component of her existence. For a person, she desires individuals to know just how gifted an artist her mother was.  She “absorbed” society, Bell claims, and apart from her amazingly astute lyrics, which tore chunks out of consumerism and societal expectations, she was an avid writer of all the things from poems to shorter tales, all of which she managed getting still left faculty at 15. Bell also preferred to make clear how essential spirituality was in her mother’s lifestyle, and devotes time in the film to the period of time they both equally put in residing in a secluded mansion as devotees of the Hare Krishna motion in the Eighties.

“She usually claimed to me that she really felt people did not acquire her significantly,” Bell says. “They patronised her and addressed her like she was stupid.” We see various clips of male interviewers asking overly intimate, prying thoughts, or responding to her thoughtful solutions with outright disregard.

“That’s what she was coming up versus,” Bell states. “People had really fastened strategies presently, not just on what she was about, but what feminine pop stars have been about.” The truth she spoke with a thick south London accent didn’t support either. “People would make all types of assumptions about another person who was youthful from Brixton with that accent. She was just continually underestimated.”

We listen to about how the press picked apart the way she looked, from enamel braces to the condition of her body, and how the punk scene she discovered herself a section of — supposedly a bastion of the counterculture — was in actuality “very conservative in terms of what was appropriate,” Bell states. In 1 piece of footage, we see Poly surrounded by a huddle of male admirers striving forcefully to kiss her on the lips, some thing that would justifiably be thought of assault right now.

“They have been really hard, people punk gigs,” Bell suggests. “I think the initial couple, my mum appreciated, but quite speedily she was about it.” Bell tells of a single gig in Paris exactly where Poly’s choice to participate in some acoustic songs was satisfied with “an onslaught of spit and horrible language”.

“She was so fed up after that. It was one particular of all those defining times where she was just like, ‘F*** this, f*** them’.”

The punk bands themselves ended up rarely any better. Attending a Sex Pistols gig as a teenager was a formative second for Poly, but as the film points out, when she arrived to associate with the team, she was met with disdain on a single celebration, Sid Vicious locked her in a cabinet for an hour.

That mistreatment led to 1 of Poly’s most enduring general public statements. She went up to the toilet in John Lydon’s home and shaved all her hair off. As Bell explains, it was a multi-layered act. In one particular feeling, it was a way to need the focus of her peers. In one more, it was a rejection of the sex image standing that had been thrust on her. But, Bell suggests, “the darkest side of it is that she was going through some critical mental well being issues. It was a true cry for assist.”

Celeste Bell

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When Poly was very first admitted to the Maudsley Medical center in south London, just after dealing with a bout of erratic behaviour and what seemed like hallucinations, she was wrongly diagnosed with schizophrenia. The depictions of her remedy in the movie are damning she was told by some doctors that she was “out of her depth” and that she’d “never do the job again”.

“My mum did get the tail conclusion of some of the worst areas of mental wellness therapy,” Bell claims. “For case in point, she actually did have electrical shock therapy, and it was quite experimental in terms of medicine.” One particular personal physician, upon mastering that Poly was a vegetarian, approved a food plan of scarce-cooked meat as a heal. “Obviously it didn’t make any variance,” suggests Bell. “It was some serious quack kind of stuff that she arrived throughout.”

Bell’s own feelings in direction of her mother remaining taken into psychological wellbeing institutions is blended. “There had been lots of occasions when all I needed was my mum to be sectioned,” she says. “That’s what I required, which is what the household needed, for the reason that there was no different. She experienced to be in hospital.

“But, on the other hand, I have to believe from her viewpoint she was becoming stored versus her will in an institution,” Bell adds. “The reality that people with psychological wellness challenges [who are sectioned] generally do not have the very same rights as other individuals in modern society is anything we seriously have to have to speak about. We never talk about that.”

Viewers of the documentary who have also witnessed the recent film Framing Britney Spears will be struck forcefully by the parallels with a lady who, underneath the pressures of her fame, not only shaved her hair like Poly did, but also shed her agency, this time many thanks to a conservatorship, supposedly enacted for her very own fantastic. And of system, Poly’s story is also evidence that the intrusive, sexualised treatment of younger girls in music revealed in some of Britney’s early interviews is almost nothing new.

Bell can speak openly about her mother’s struggles thanks in portion to the therapy she had as a boy or girl, and the film goes on to present that, in advance of her mother’s dying, their bond was much better than at any time. The footage from that gig at the Roundhouse where by Bell gets up on stage with her mother to sing the chorus to a single of X-Ray Spex’s most famed songs, Oh Bondage! Up Yours!, is powerfully going.

What sticks in Bell’s memory, from that night time and from other periods in her everyday living, is just how deep an affect her mom experienced to all those with whom she came into speak to.

“Anyone who satisfied my mum, they were just genuinely touched by that,” Bell suggests. “Even if it was really quick, they normally felt like their life had been improved by that 1 come across. That’s how outstanding she was.”

Poly Styrene: I Am A Cliché is out on March 5